NOW you see it
NOW you dont

@ FIFTY24MX, Mexico City 12.10.11 - 1.21.12

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Lili Carpinteyro or Arturo Mizrahi

Show Statement

Over the years, the creation of art has evolved to be a consistent place of deep seeking and connection for me.   I draw inspiration from biology, science, mathematics, physics, and integral theory to create a visual language that expresses my personal journey into non-dual teachings and the understanding of universal truths.

This work was made over a period of 15 months. During that time, my husband and I did IVF to get pregnant, my father had a severe stroke  at 67 rendering him paralyzed and brain damaged for 14 months, my twin sons were born at 26 weeks gestation and spent three months in the NICU. Eventually my father passed away and today our sons are a year old, happy and healthy and beating the odds.  This period brought in full force, the beautiful intensity of the human story - the cycle of life death.

Being present seems to come easier to me when the road is difficult. Bed-rest, dying parent, babies on life support - no problem.  However, when the dust settles and nothing is going on,  I'm suddenly paralyzed in inaction. Unwilling to meditate, I drink a little too much, and have no real desire to question my thoughts.  Little things get to me. Now I have two amazing healthy babies - life is good and I feel more bound to the story than ever…  It seems that after each period of letting go, I grip harder and more awkwardly to the story of me.  All growth seems to comes with a pendulum swing in the opposite direction. Life death life death life death life death...

I think I might be forgetting something.
Something real and free of me
Something that we are all a part of
Something elemental to this work
Something that I can't see clearly right now
That’s why I've entitled this show

NOW YOU SEE IT NOW YOU DONT

the most elementary lesson
that any experience we have through our senses whether through light
or through sound or through touch is a vibration and a vibration has
two aspects: one called on, and the other called off.  Vibration seems
to be propagated in waves and every wave system has crests, and it has
troughs, and so life is a system of NOW you see it NOW you don't.
 
these two aspects always go together
(for example sound is not pure sound, it is an rapid alternation of sound and silence) and that's simply the way things are

only you must remember, that the crest and the trough of the wave are  inseparable.
Nobody ever saw crests, without troughs, or troughs without crests. 
Just as you don't encounter, in life, people without fronts with no backs.  Just as you don't encounter a coin that has heads but no tails, and as though the head and the tails, the fronts and the backs, the positives and the negatives are different, they are at the same time one.

and one has to get used the notion
that different things can be inseparable.
that what is explicitly two
can at the same time be implicitly one

if you forget that
very funny things happen

- Alan Watts

Yearning to Grow, Willing to Die
Polymer Clay, Acrylic, Custom shadowbox with Museum Plexi
21" x 27"

The Great Loving Lure
Polymer Clay, Acrylic, Custom shadowbox with Museum Plexi
20" x 27"

Theophanic Imagination
Polymer Clay, Acrylic, Custom shadowbox with Museum Plexi
23’’ X 18 ’’

The Shapeshifting Self
Polymer Clay, Acrylic, Custom shadowbox with Museum Plexi
18’’ X 26 ’’

Natural Order
Polymer Clay
10" x 10"

Urgency without fear
Polymer Clay
10" x 10"

Native Vision
Polymer Clay
10" x 10"

The Inclination to Become
Polymer Clay
10" x 10"’

Understanding vs. Realization
Polymer Clay
10" x 10"

Living Creation
Polymer Clay
10" x 10"

Eye on Truth
Polymer Clay
10" x 10"

Only all of it will do
Polymer Clay
10" x 10"

Die into true nature
Polymer Clay
10" x 10"

Mycosynthetic synthesis
Polymer Clay
10" x 10"

All of it Perfect
Polymer Clay
10" x 10"

Whole Hearted Cooperation
Polymer Clay
10" x 10"

from LtoR
Memememe 11, 7, 3, 4
Polymer Clay
6.5 ’’ X 6.5 ’’

from LtoR
Memememe 12, 10, 9, 13
Polymer Clay
6.5 ’’ X 6.5 ’’

from LtoR
Memememe 2, 5, 15, 1
Polymer Clay
6.5 ’’ X 6.5 ’’